It's been a whileSo some things have happened, not all of it has been great and yes, it's all really difficult to talk about it. But if you don't talk about it, then nothing changes.It's a secret to nobody that I suffer badly with depression and anxiety, and have struggled for a long time with both those things atop problems in my personal life ranging from health to losing Mat. It all came to a head in April when I attempted to take my own life. Since then, I've waited for therapy, I've hung in there and I've started making changes in my life to improve it. I've seen a psychologist and been diagnosed with severe anxiety disorder, depression, mild ptsd and something called Complicated Grief Disorder.It's bad enough hearing it and doing the questions for it.But it's not all bad - these things are treatable and manageable and some will eventually lessen and fade with said treatment.That said, for a long time I've felt like my art has been... not of my own enjoyment. It felt a lot like trying to fill
Not DeadJust sick as a dog!It's been a while huh? How you all been?!
I'm tired of being tiredI'm worn out honestly.But still alive. x
It's been a horrible monthHello, I have some sad news to report;My younger sister who has been suffering for months with speaking utter gibberish and seeing only gibberish which comes and goes (she can't read when it happens. It's not even actual words, it's like she is literally speaking tongues or some weird incantation in a language no one speaks or knows) had a seizure a week and a bit ago. I woke up to a strange noise and came in to find that she was stiff in her seat, foaming and banging her head on the wall. Since then we've been frantically rushing her to appointments to get images and stuff so they have a full picture of what is wrong with her health.I haven't slept much and I spend a lot of time running in to see if she's alright. I've also been spending more time with her. She's confessed she sometimes wakes up with painful stomach muscles, as something I noticed as she was mid-seizure and in the post ictal state, was that her stomach muscles were constantly contracting rather than anything else. I
This just in...medication that makes me even drowsier than I already am is the devil and zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz ;_;Having a weekend of attempting to (badly) adjust to new medication levels and new meds entirely (ahhh diazepam derivatives, you are wonderful!) - just wish I'd stop dropping off to sleep mid sentence constantly.
Streaming and music and voicehttps://www.picarto.tv/live/channel.php?watch=Bhryn for a couple of hours!
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Trouble BrewingLike a bad cup of tea.I've been up and down this past week and a bit in agony with my back and hip. Eventually got so bad we had the dr out. He thinks it might be sacroliatis (I spelled it wrong, I know, bite me) and extensive/severe nerve damage. He's increased my gabapentin, but honestly it doesn't seem to be doing a whole lot for me.Next week he'll probably put me on another drug with it an...something... pan...I have to get an x-ray done of my lower back/left hip and possibly another MRI. I haven't been x-rayed/MRI'd for my back since I was diagnosed two and a half years ago so this is frightening territory. I hope they don't find anything too amiss.For now, I'm resting a lot. Thanks for understanding <3
GUESS THE HELLS WHATYou can click those for better images BUT the shirts my friend ordered came and she took some pics with her wearing them - they look incredible!!!https://www.teepublic.com/user/Bhryn
Commissions! (DO NOT COMMISSION HERE)PLEASE COMMISSION IN THIS JOURNALCLICK ON THE LINK, IT MAY BE OPEN OR CLOSED :Commission here! Added pagedolls, will be a bit pricey! (since it'll be a full body)RulesI will not draw NSFW. Basically anything that's not safe for the kids. (anything sexual and fetishes are also not allowed)Please be patient. I have the right to cancel your order if you keep asking me when it'll finish.You may repost artworks but please mention / credit me.Do not make money out of my art.I can try to draw almost anything (cats, wolfs, ponies, almost any! Except for NSFW OCs)I may increase the price if the OC is too hard or too many detailsI need the payment to be paid upfront.Be serious ab
Super Smash Bros x Attack on Titan Opening 2I FINISHED IT!!!!! :iconfinallyplz::iconpurplerose1plz::iconpurplerose2plz::iconpurplerose3plz::iconrose1plz::iconrose1plz::iconpurplerose4plz::iconpurplerose5plz::iconpurplerose6plz::iconpurplerose1plz::iconpurplerose2plz::iconpurplerose3plz::iconrose1plz::iconrose1plz::iconpurplerose4plz::iconpurplerose5plz::iconpurplerose6plz:I can't believe I'm done...after 6 months of working (Could've been 4 or 5 if school wasn't in the way all the time...T__T) I'm done...My initial deadline was by the end of April, but....I finished a lot earlier than that. I FEEL INVINCIBLE NOW!!!! If you're gonna comment, it would be nice if you were to comment on the actual YouTube page. But if you can't because of reasons, then it's okay....I guess....Feel free to share on Tumblr or other websites as long as you link back to the original video page.Please do not reupload as your own. I w
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Hyan Original CharactersYes you can draw any of them! Just link it back to me or mention me, so I can see, love and comment! ♥ (Any OC not listed here is a no-no to draw.)Chiye [drawing references]My mascot oc!Means she pretty much fits to many themes and that I don't mind you drawing her different from the references ;3• Name: Chiye• Age: 17• Height: 160 cm• Details: Blue eyes, pink hair and fluffy pink tail• Personality: Very happy and positive, loves to talk with people, and is very expressive, but can be super lazy when sad or bored.Despite being very positive, she is a lazy bun, so if you need help, she will cheer you up, but helping? Oh dear, too much muscles to move!• Species: she is part dog, part cat and of course, part human.• <
Stop hating your art and yourselfSo this is something that I've been bottling up for a while and I want to address it. Now, before you harp on me, I am guilty of this from time to time as well. However I want to open up the floor to this conversation.I try to stay kind and gentle in my conversations with people. However for this, forgive my blunt tone. I am giving people advice based on what worked for me and other professionals I've talked to. This advice is for ANYONE, but mostly visual mediums like drawing, paints, etc. Though if you stretch your mind a bit, it could apply to any medium.Also I KNOW not everyone wants to be a pro. This is about being a pro. It's about bettering your art. I have people always asking me about getting better and improving, and this is my advice to you all.A. Your art does NOT suck. For the love of the planet, PLEASE stop saying this. Your art may not be at the same level as someone else, maybe your family member, your friends, classmates or id
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Find Your Homestuck Troll Blood Color!Yeah so here is how it works! You need to figure out your sun sign, and your moon sign. There is a calculator similar to this one out there, but it doesn't take in account jade bloods or mutants. This also doesn't require rounding. Hussie has already stated that the only troll blood colors that exist are the ones we have seen in the comic + lime. I also had to take in account that the jade blood color is rare, but the odds of getting jade with the distribution unadjusted are extremely high, so I figured out a way to make it work so it makes sense. I also took in account that fuchsia blood is extremely rare, and so is being mutant. The distribution that I am working with is a pyramid. I'll explain the breakdown at the end.If you don't know your sun sign, click here: http://www.astrology-online.com/persn.htmIf you don't know your moon sign, click here: http://www.lunarium.co.uk/moonsign/calculator.jspNext you need to add up the values of
*NEW*Sketch Commissions [CLOSED]*EDIT* -02/13/2018Thank you all for taking interest in my art! I will be closing them again for a short while as I’ve gotten more commission inquiries than I’ve expected// i’ Will open them again once i’ve Finished this batch, thank you///// For those who have sent me messages already, you’re still ok/// I will be replying to them shortly.----------------------------------INFOPlease read the TOS before commissioning me.STATUS: CLOSEDSketch Commissions Samples: More Samples Here 8D
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