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  • Listening to: Escape - Megan Nicole
  • Reading: Norweigan Wood - Haruka Murakami
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  • Playing: World of Warcraft + Fallout 4
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So some things have happened, not all of it has been great and yes, it's all really difficult to talk about it. But if you don't talk about it, then nothing changes.

It's a secret to nobody that I suffer badly with depression and anxiety, and have struggled for a long time with both those things atop problems in my personal life ranging from health to losing Mat. It all came to a head in April when I attempted to take my own life. Since then, I've waited for therapy, I've hung in there and I've started making changes in my life to improve it. I've seen a psychologist and been diagnosed with severe anxiety disorder, depression, mild ptsd and something called Complicated Grief Disorder.

It's bad enough hearing it and doing the questions for it.

But it's not all bad - these things are treatable and manageable and some will eventually lessen and fade with said treatment.

That said, for a long time I've felt like my art has been... not of my own enjoyment. It felt a lot like trying to fill a space I couldn't. Lately that's started to change, I've begun enjoying drawing again.

I'm also back on WoW - Wyrmrest Accord, horde side US (Ferain is my main, DH tonk, enjoy my edgelord)

...but yeah. That's why it's been so quiet on my end.

Things have changed, things will continue to change and all from now on, hopefully for the better.
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GigglesGallery Featured By Owner Aug 23, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I hope you don't mind when I say I'll be praying for you. Hang in there! 
MaKo85 Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
*pats seat next to her* always welcome, irrregardles.
Gots to stick together.

Also, dids thou gets pic?
Stormweaver-Arts Featured By Owner Aug 21, 2016  Professional General Artist
Hun, first and foremost you need to take care of you, anxiety and depression are some of the hardest things in life to deal with and losing people you care about doesn't make that any easier. I lost my brother last year and my cousin to suicide the year before that and nothing hurts more than knowing they aren't there anymore but it's the memories that get me through it. I know I don't know you well or your situation at all, but if ever you need someone to talk to, vent at or just rant I will gladly lend an ear. 
ThomClyma Featured By Owner Aug 21, 2016  Professional Writer
On the positive side, now that you know the names and what classifications they are, it stops feeling as helpless. At least that's been my experience. I attempted to take my own life two and a half years ago after a REALLY bad bout with depression. It sucks, but it's a good first step to being a better person.

If you ever need someone to talk to or make you laugh, lemme know. I've got some great knock knock jokes. 
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