Shop Forum More Submit  Join Login
×
I'm still alive!
  • Listening to: Escape - Megan Nicole
  • Reading: Norweigan Wood - Haruka Murakami
  • Watching: Gotham season 1
  • Playing: World of Warcraft + Fallout 4
  • Eating: Maltesers
  • Drinking: Pepsi Max
So some things have happened, not all of it has been great and yes, it's all really difficult to talk about it. But if you don't talk about it, then nothing changes.

It's a secret to nobody that I suffer badly with depression and anxiety, and have struggled for a long time with both those things atop problems in my personal life ranging from health to losing Mat. It all came to a head in April when I attempted to take my own life. Since then, I've waited for therapy, I've hung in there and I've started making changes in my life to improve it. I've seen a psychologist and been diagnosed with severe anxiety disorder, depression, mild ptsd and something called Complicated Grief Disorder.

It's bad enough hearing it and doing the questions for it.

But it's not all bad - these things are treatable and manageable and some will eventually lessen and fade with said treatment.

That said, for a long time I've felt like my art has been... not of my own enjoyment. It felt a lot like trying to fill a space I couldn't. Lately that's started to change, I've begun enjoying drawing again.

I'm also back on WoW - Wyrmrest Accord, horde side US (Ferain is my main, DH tonk, enjoy my edgelord)

...but yeah. That's why it's been so quiet on my end.

Things have changed, things will continue to change and all from now on, hopefully for the better.
  • Listening to: It Was Always You - Maroon 5
  • Reading: Nothing
  • Watching: Brooklyn Nine Nine
  • Playing: FFXIV + Grandia 2
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Hot liquids
Just sick as a dog!

It's been a while huh? How you all been?!

I'm tired of being tired

Journal Entry: Wed Jul 29, 2015, 11:01 AM


I'm worn out honestly.

But still alive. x

  • Listening to: --
  • Reading: ---
  • Watching: ---
  • Playing: --
  • Eating: --
  • Drinking: --

It's been a horrible month

Journal Entry: Fri May 22, 2015, 9:04 AM


Hello, I have some sad news to report;

My younger sister who has been suffering for months with speaking utter gibberish and seeing only gibberish which comes and goes (she can't read when it happens. It's not even actual words, it's like she is literally speaking tongues or some weird incantation in a language no one speaks or knows) had a seizure a week and a bit ago. I woke up to a strange noise and came in to find that she was stiff in her seat, foaming and banging her head on the wall. Since then we've been frantically rushing her to appointments to get images and stuff so they have a full picture of what is wrong with her health.

I haven't slept much and I spend a lot of time running in to see if she's alright. I've also been spending more time with her. She's confessed she sometimes wakes up with painful stomach muscles, as something I noticed as she was mid-seizure and in the post ictal state, was that her stomach muscles were constantly contracting rather than anything else. It's likely she's had seizures whilst asleep but we can't confirm it.

Obviously, I was frightened and I still am. I can't get the image of it out of my mind, and I hope that by getting in there when I did, holding her head to prevent the banging (but not restraining her motions, I put my hand between her head and the wall) and even so much as noticing it, that we can help whatever it is that happened. We still don't know, we're waiting.

As such my commissions have pretty much gotten shelved. I'm trying to make time to do some but it's a slow and extremely difficult process given what is going on, atop my own illnesses.

I can only apologise.

JIMMYJAMSTER1992 and constantie  - I'm aware you're on the waiting for sketches list and haven't sent me any money, so you're free to cancel your spot if you want to as I'm unsure if and when I will have time to dedicate to the work over the coming days. I can only extend my utmost gratitude for wanting a commission from me and my absolute apologies for what has happened and continues to take up my time.

  • Listening to: --
  • Reading: ---
  • Watching: ---
  • Playing: --
  • Eating: --
  • Drinking: --

This just in...

Journal Entry: Sun May 10, 2015, 10:02 AM


medication that makes me even drowsier than I already am is the devil and zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz ;_;

Having a weekend of attempting to (badly) adjust to new medication levels and new meds entirely (ahhh diazepam derivatives, you are wonderful!) - just wish I'd stop dropping off to sleep mid sentence constantly.

  • Listening to: Grooveshark Playlists
  • Reading: ---
  • Watching: ---
  • Playing: Persona 4 - YOSUKE FOREVER
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Tea, darling, Tea.

Streaming and music and voice

Journal Entry: Fri May 8, 2015, 6:55 AM


www.picarto.tv/live/channel.ph…; for a couple of hours!

  • Listening to: Grooveshark Playlists
  • Reading: ---
  • Watching: ---
  • Playing: Persona 4 - YOSUKE FOREVER
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Tea, darling, Tea.

COMMISSIONS - MAY

Journal Entry: Sat May 2, 2015, 4:57 AM


They're open again, five more slots up for grabs!

JEEBUS

THINGS GOT OUT OF HAND.
1. samuellbnoble
2. kisforkarol
3. tellendar
4. zanshlou
5. morningstrider

….. aaaand

1. Constantie (DA)
2. thehappilymarriedasexual
3. JIMMYJAMSTER1992 
4. warchiefkargath
5. LambyLin

  • Listening to: Grooveshark Playlists
  • Reading: ---
  • Watching: ---
  • Playing: Persona 4 - YOSUKE FOREVER
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Tea, darling, Tea.

Trouble Brewing

Journal Entry: Sat May 2, 2015, 3:28 AM


Like a bad cup of tea.

I've been up and down this past week and a bit in agony with my back and hip. Eventually got so bad we had the dr out. He thinks it might be sacroliatis (I spelled it wrong, I know, bite me) and extensive/severe nerve damage. He's increased my gabapentin, but honestly it doesn't seem to be doing a whole lot for me.

Next week he'll probably put me on another drug with it an...something... pan...

I have to get an x-ray done of my lower back/left hip and possibly another MRI. I haven't been x-rayed/MRI'd for my back since I was diagnosed two and a half years ago so this is frightening territory. I hope they don't find anything too amiss.

For now, I'm resting a lot. Thanks for understanding <3

  • Listening to: Grooveshark Playlists
  • Reading: ---
  • Watching: ---
  • Playing: Persona 4 - YOSUKE FOREVER
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Tea, darling, Tea.

GUESS THE HELLS WHAT

Journal Entry: Tue Apr 28, 2015, 1:12 PM




You can click those for better images BUT the shirts my friend ordered came and she took some pics with her wearing them - they look incredible!!!

www.teepublic.com/user/Bhryn

  • Listening to: Grooveshark Playlists
  • Reading: ---
  • Watching: ---
  • Playing: Persona 4 - YOSUKE FOREVER
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Tea, darling, Tea.

Redbubble

Journal Entry: Sun Apr 26, 2015, 12:06 PM


Hello guys! I have my redbubble store up and going, where I'll be selling prints, shirts, mugs, cases, skins, my soul, etc etc

www.redbubble.com/people/bhryn

Please feel free to like it, throw my link around, lick it, etc etc.

I'll be adding art there on a consistent basis.

- WEBCOMIC -

I'm also, once these two commishes are done with, starting up my webcomic once again. I have to get back in the groove! I'll have some merch on the RB store for there, and we'll hopefully be seeing more of Bhryn and her dumbass adventures in the world of Ascension.

  • Listening to: Grooveshark Playlists
  • Reading: ---
  • Watching: ---
  • Playing: Persona 4 - YOSUKE FOREVER
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Tea, darling, Tea.

Livetsream April 24th - Ryuko and Mako

Journal Entry: Fri Apr 24, 2015, 8:37 AM


www.picarto.tv/live/channel.ph…

Mic is on, come on in!!!

  • Listening to: Grooveshark Playlists
  • Reading: ---
  • Watching: ---
  • Playing: Persona 4 - YOSUKE FOREVER
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Tea, darling, Tea.

Apparel Store

Journal Entry: Thu Apr 23, 2015, 10:17 AM


www.teepublic.com/user/Bhryn

Next up, Kill la Kill!

(FYI shirts go on sale at $14 for the first 3 days, then they go up in price, if you wanna get em cheaper, get them when I upload!)

  • Listening to: Grooveshark Playlists
  • Reading: ---
  • Watching: ---
  • Playing: Persona 4 - YOSUKE FOREVER
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Tea, darling, Tea.

Livestreaming April 23rd

Journal Entry: Wed Apr 22, 2015, 7:28 PM


www.picarto.tv/live/channel.ph…

Sylvanus Windrunner t-shirt

  • Listening to: Grooveshark Playlists
  • Reading: ---
  • Watching: ---
  • Playing: Persona 4 - YOSUKE FOREVER
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Tea, darling, Tea.

Thank you for waiting!

Journal Entry: Sun Apr 12, 2015, 11:22 AM


Woo! So yesterday something really awesome happened and I can’t discuss it yet (as it might be jumping the gun) and I don’t want to jinx it, but I can say that it would be something incredible and brighten my families’ future :D

ALSO my hip and back are really starting to feel better.

I’m looking forward to being in better health this week and getting some of my art commissions done for the people who have patiently and SO understandingly waited for my body to pull itself together, thank you! ( Aokori ThePeachUnicorn )

I’m in such a good mood, feels like my hearts about to burst!ALLLLLLSO watching Akatsuki no Yona/Yona of the Dawn. FUSHIGI YUGI ANYONE!? OR ESCAFLOWNE!? IT’S LIKE MY TEENAGE YEARS AGAIN OMG!!!!

  • Listening to: Grooveshark Playlists
  • Reading: ---
  • Watching: ---
  • Playing: Persona 4 - YOSUKE FOREVER
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Tea, darling, Tea.

Having a mini pause

Journal Entry: Sun Apr 5, 2015, 12:21 PM


I've really badly hurt my hip (the left one again LOL sigh) so I'm waiting for the bank holiday to pass (monday) and then I'll be seeing my doctor. I need some better pain medication as I cant sit or even lie down in comfort atm. As such, small pause on artwork/commishes whilst I wait for pain meds.

Should be business as usual in a few days, just letting you guys know.

Thanks <3

  • Listening to: Grooveshark Playlists
  • Reading: ---
  • Watching: ---
  • Playing: Persona 4 - YOSUKE FOREVER
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Tea, darling, Tea.

Livestreaming

Journal Entry: Wed Apr 1, 2015, 7:41 PM


a FAIRLY big picture for a hopefully to be happy customer:

www.picarto.tv/live/channel.ph…

With voice and music (not sure how long the voice will go for tho)

  • Listening to: Grooveshark Playlists
  • Reading: ---
  • Watching: ---
  • Playing: Persona 4 - YOSUKE FOREVER
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Tea, darling, Tea.

Surprise

Journal Entry: Thu Mar 26, 2015, 6:06 AM


I re-opened commissions.

Five slots.
1. Aokori 
2. TwoTigerMoon 
3. Morningstrider (tumblr)
4. Samuelnoble (tumblr)
5. geekie- mari (tumblr)

FULL - should have some open up later in April/into May. Sorry!

  • Listening to: Grooveshark Playlists
  • Reading: ---
  • Watching: ---
  • Playing: Persona 4 - YOSUKE FOREVER
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Tea, darling, Tea.

Streaming for a few hours WITH MIC ON

Journal Entry: Tue Mar 24, 2015, 8:18 AM


EVEN MORE WOW ART, I HOPE YOU LIKE ANGRY BRITISH PEOPLE!

www.picarto.tv/live/channel.ph…

  • Listening to: Grooveshark Playlists
  • Reading: ---
  • Watching: ---
  • Playing: Persona 4 - YOSUKE FOREVER
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Tea, darling, Tea.

Free Art

Journal Entry: Thu Mar 12, 2015, 5:29 AM


Well kinda, there's a catch. It's a prize giveaway and has already reached over 1k notes (I think people are going a bit insane over this)

Prizes as they stand:

Five Busts (waist up)
Five headshots (neck up)
One super secret reblog prize for the one who reblogs the most!


If we make over 2k notes, I will add another five headshots, and five chibi style artworks.

ALL IN COLOUR.

Of your wow toons, star wars toons, eso toons, skyrim, dragon age, whatever you love.

>>> the tumblr link and rules:  bhryn.tumblr.com/post/11342256…



  • Listening to: Grooveshark Playlists
  • Reading: ---
  • Watching: ---
  • Playing: Persona 4 - YOSUKE FOREVER
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Tea, darling, Tea.